Summa Summa Summa-time!

I love this time of year! My classes are done, I am laid off of work until school starts in the fall, I can chill out and just relax. My weight is my only issue right now. Putting weight aside, my life feels wonderful! I am so proud of myself. I feel I have grown SO MUCH! I have been sober for 40 months, I went from living on couches at friends' houses to holding up my own household, from not paying my bills and wasting all of my money to having not only a checking account with a small balance but also a Christmas Club account and a Vacation account. (Thank you tax return!) I have gone from not committing myself in taking care of anything to having a child and taking care of everything by myself. I am realizing how many things I have to be proud of myself for. I am such a strong person and whether or not my dad thinks I'm a fat waste of space or whether I get "fat chick' looks from people I don't know, I am a great, resiliant woman and I am learning to love myself again.

I have gotten up early (earlier than when I was working thanks to a certain little someone!) every day this week. Yesterday I was up by 6am and took Ben to daycare, then breakfast with my aunt Nancie, then off to the unemployment office. I got some cleaning done, and took Ben to see Shrek 4 3D. Loved it! He is such a good boy, he sat through the whole thing, I think the 3D aspect was awesome and added so much to the experience. Then we went and bought flowers for the deck. This morning he woke me up at 5:30am and we were out the door by 7. I dropped him at daycare and by 9:30am I was done with the laundramat, the bank, going around paying the bills.. (I am a cash only girl, it has helped me turn down my spending habits immensely) and now that I am home I am relaxing, soon I will do my 15 minute houseblessing (see flylady.net). I am taking Ben on vacation soon and it is going to be so fun! The aquarium and the zoo and a nice hotel room with a pool.... AAAHHHHHH, our first vacation and my first vacation in about 4-5 years.