no more

i am done being a doormat. i WILL NOT allow ben to be hurt by the fact his dad is an *explitive here*. i will no longer kiss his irresponsible butt in the hopes that if i am nice enough and dont call him on his BS, maybe he will come around. NO MORE. he is deleted and blocked from my social networking sites. he doesnt deserve to lay his eyes on ben. until ben is old enough to ask to see him, i hope he doesnt get to breathe the same air as ben. he isnt worthy of being his dad. im tired of feeling guilty about this situation. i am done with the stress. bottomline is... he has not been present in bens life. ben is old enough to start creating lifelong memories and i dont want his father to come in and out of his life once a year. (last year he gave ben his bday gift 5 months late... and i had to give the loser gas money to get him to actually show up!) he has missed every important day in bens life and now, last straw, he deleted bens pics and put up pics of his new girlfriend. i will not tolerate his disrespect anymore, ben is better off with absolutely no contact from him. as if thats a stretch....